Love shouldn’t hurt

There’s an original piece before this – it doesn’t mean much to me now. I added this piece on – it means a lot to me now.

It’s been two years since I broke up with you – sitting on a park bench, talking to you on the phone.

After I hung up the phone, I felt something I hadn’t felt in years – freedom.

The last two years of my life have been the hardest. I had to deal with the realization I was in an emotionally abusive relationship.

I had to deal with accepting the person I loved stole parts of me over time, and now I had to rebuild myself from the ground up.

I had to accept the fact that you were only depending on me until you found someone new, which you did, while we were still together. You denied it, but you two are together now, so I was right.

I had to deal with anxiety and depression.

I had to fight for my life because I didn’t think I was worth anything to stay here.

I had to rely on my friends, they all helped save me.

Love shouldn’t hurt. Love shouldn’t take away who you are. Love shouldn’t break you and destroy you. Love shouldn’t isolate you. Love shouldn’t make you feel indebted.

Love should make you wake up every day with a smile on your face. Love should elevate you and push you to be the best you. Love should support you, care for you, nurture you.

I know now too that love and soulmates come in various forms.

I may not have a romantic love right now, but I have unconditional, platonic love from all my friends.

I’m rebuilding love with my family.

And, for the first time in my life, I’m experiencing a new kind of love – Self love.

Now, when people ask me about my jellyfish tattoo, I tell them the truth – I love jellyfish. I’ve loved them since before I loved you.

So, yes, you destroyed me, broke me and stopped loving me. But I survived and am much stronger now.

It’s a privilege to be in my life. And you abused that privilege. You are missing out on the phenomenal person I am today, and truly, I feel sorry for you because of that.

I wish you nothing but happiness – real happiness – and I hope you never destroy another person again.

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